Freaky Coincidence Dream

28th Night, 29th Morning of November 2009...

Another family dream, Dream that me and all my mom’s side relatives are going to vacation together. Since the place where we are going is nearby to my dads side of relation, my dad plans a short visit there. Before actually checking in to the apartment, we stopped by a mamak stall (mamak stall is Malaysian small Tea/ coffee shop near the street side). We took some quick stuffing for our tummy like maggi goreng, mee goreng, and such. As all of my little cousins sat same table as I am and we were finishing very slow. My uncle gave me RM 50 to pay up for the table im seating at while those done with the food can follow aunt to nearby shop that’s about RM 12.30. Everyone left besides my cousin sister sapna, she is waiting for me to pay at the cashier. The cashier guy is so slow in calculating and it was just simple math. I got so annoyed and jump in and said “Here RM 50, it is RM12.30 right?! Balance would be RM37.70, quick please I wanna get going now”. Done with short trip to the shops to buy some tidbits, we head back to the apartment and down to the beach for some fun. Its time to go to my dads relative side house, only my family were pushed to go there while my moms relative taking a break waiting for us at the apartment. We went to a house with sarongs hanging out side the house. We were greeted by a lady that I feel familiar. Since we have never met for years me and my siblings barely recognize them. Freakily the Cashier guy was there and all of a sudden his mother started mumbling about she saw how I reacted earlier at the shop and how nice if I can be part of their family! I got shocked and that cashier guy kept on starring at me in blank look as if still stuck with that math problem. I got panic and stood up saying no way im getting married and walk away straight to the car waiting for my family to get the hell out of there. I woke up sweating feeling so scared, funny.

Sagitarian (Horse Guy) Love Dream

27th Night, 28th Morning of November 2009...

This dream was normal at the beginning being my self with my family. My bro and sis packed up at a hotel just to send them off to train station as they were about to go for holiday while me suppose to be taking care of my autistic bro and parents went out for their own “Dating” time. I was left alone at the hotel with bro that night, As it was getting late I got worried parents haven’t called up or came back yet. Got annoyed of their irresponsible behavior I called up the Mc Donald take out service and had a good dinner with my beloved bro. However thought my parents will be back the next day, it turn out they still haven’t returned yet. Thank goodness in afternoon parents are back and brought me and my bro to a Garden like mini Zoo, I was happy taking pictures of bro and as usual my bro was clinging on to me being afraid of the animals around. At a moment, when bro was clinging so hard on me, I turned around looking for my parents for help, my parents were not there! I got panic, thinking how could they just disappear on us. I pulled my bro nearing to the exit where the car park were and notice my parents were leaving without us. Weirdly I was calm and raged seeing that. Since it was quiet pack at the exit and it’s hard to pull my bro from one place to another, I chose a shortcut which end up Bizarre. While searching for another exit I bumped into a men that looked like a horse or something where the body have 2 extra strong hands or wings looking thing. I and bro ride on him and I instantly fall in love with him. He brought us to a huge palace like building with several items seems to be animated like the story of beauty and the beast. Instead of heading to the exit and leaving the park, we end up at the palace, The horse looking guy said he was locked up by the Zoo people and now back to his palace as the prophecy said a girl who loves you and a boy who cant speak will break the curse and chain that lock him up at the Zoo. I didn’t get that exactly but yea it was something like that. Inside the palace a hard and scary voice came from upstairs, “A great Sorceress own everything here”. We were brought to a man like giant who can resize from a normal human size to a giant. The giant fell in love with me while I was in love with that horse guy. A lady came by asking me details which she actually listening to my minds thoughts. She can read peoples mind. She is also the giant’s mom and when she found out that I was in love with the horse guy she said “I can break his curse if you stay away from my son”. So me and my bro stayed temporarily in a room that night. My bro made a mess there and I had to clean it up before any other problems arise. The lady said something in sign language to the horse guy and before the giant knows it, me and my bro was riding the horse guy away from the palace to the hotel. My parents wasn’t back yet since their luggage was still in the room, lucky the hotel guy knew me and opened the door for me as I don’t have the keys. While my bro went to bath, the horse guy took advantage kissing me in surprise and turning into a handsome young man with lots of beard and long hair. I was blur as usual and said you need a hair cut. My parents came back just in time arguing about us and I woke up…

School Monster Chaos Dream

12th Night, 13th Morning of November 2009...

I went to the high school fair that looked something like 'Pasar Petang' which mean Evening Market. Me and my friends (no idea who he or she is) went window shopping at a stall full of jeweleries and accessories. All of a sudden something from above came attacking my friend and grabbed few people up to the sky... It was Chaos in few seconds, as i was panic i turned around to see one of my friend was unconscious. I had to drag him/her to one of the class room as everyone was screaming and yelling outside, i pushed him behind the table and take cover at the other side of the table when i heard roaring sounds getting close. From the class room window, i saw a huge monster ripping and tearing everyone it sees while devouring those dead people out there. I was terrified and peeped from the back of the table i was hiding to get a better look of that monster. It was a Flying brown eagle with dragon or gryphon body. after a few minutes i could hear the sound of gun shots and grenades coming out of the class. Peek through the table side again and saw few army guys fighting against the monster, weirdly so fast there is few around. I got even more scared and slowly crawled to my friend who was unconscious... there was only a huge cocoon instead of my friend! The cocoon started moving and cracking... I rushed back hiding behind my table and peeked whats going on with that cocoon. A Huge Brown Bird looking similar like the monster out there flew out the class and started attacking the armies helicopters. That was my friend turned into a bird?! The monsters continue rampaging violently and the army was losing the war... I heard few military rescuers came just close to the class room i was yelling "Is there any survivors!". Right before i wanted to rush to them, the monster crushed them in front of the class room. I fainted viewing this horrifying incident (weird i faint in my own dream) and woke up turning into one of those creatures too.

The Start of Dream Journal

Im gonna start mumbling anything and everything personal here, Since i cherish Dreams so much, Here is my new "Habit" i picked up, Diary writing but only Dreams, hahaha. Expect bizarre and crazy dreams as dreams are always not logic. Enjoy!

Coding can make you Predict

Too many obstacles in life dont know how to face them as day by day it gets harder. Computer Science taught me a lesson that i can never forget, play coding with life. if statement and conditions for what happening. Now life is like that, prediction and worries of what might come ahead with the little percentage of variables that changes... i ask my self daily for what might happen tomorrow and never take action with a condition that i want happens next. Thus im playing codes in real life, the variables that changes are of course what led by fate or another entity. The variables that im predicting is often those aroud me, and being as stubborn as a mule make sure that i am carving the path that i want in force. It can be hurtful sometimes but at the end of the day im content with what i have accomplished so far, step by step i add on a little of my dreams daily and when i look back i have no regrets as the journey of the life is more meaningful at the end when you harvest the efforts.

Art Progress : Learning Realism

I wanted to learn Caricature but yikes, before i do that im in doubt whether i could actually paint a realism face in the first place. Since i have been high school, i sketch my friends and teachers when im bored in class. Now that im a graduate student, i realise that i havent been sketching my friends recently and i better give it s try. Well i did, in an hour or so i did it! Woa, so all this time those practises sketching in class wasnt a waste of time after all! Hmm, the tougher part is to colour it right... Well im not content with what i did, yet, it look similar though... is it?

So here it is, My very first Computer Graphic Airbrushing in Adobe Photoshop with lots of Smudging and Playing with Opacity and Soft Brush :)

DD First CG by ~sharastar on deviantART

Art Progress : Journey Begin!

Haha i actually came back to blog or more to mumble out what i was up to recently.

Today i just want to seat back and relax, While day dream, my eyes caught the huge art piece i painted with Buncho Water colour. It reminded me to stay on track of my dreams... Oh i have a C++ Exam next week and better dont keep my head cramped with Art stuff for a while. But yet my heart says opposite... Instead of laying on bed and day dreaming better try drawing some sketches... and thats how i came across "Concept Art" in DeviantArt site. My heart wanted to know more on Concept Art and when i googled it up, its all about letting out imaginations that pop up in mind. All this time i was day dreaming and sketching those weird stuff of places that dont exist is called concept art? Woa... i need to do more research on this.

So i actually did something based on what i understood of Concept Art, Its a Dream of me in Night Dress being in a swampy at night with a huge cobra following me from behind... yes the cobra bite me already and the poison is in my veins. Its just a dream, yet felt so real, Since i just got my new tablet i started Airbrushing in photoshop, i tried my best to draw the cobra so real as my mind captured only the cobra so vividly, but i cant remember anything else clear enough though. However i know exactly what i was feeling then, its scared yet i need to find something... Just i Dont know what. Oh well, thats about the art piece called "Its waiting 4 me 2 die" in my Deviant Art.

Here is The "Its Waiting 4 me 2 Die" i did :


Its waiting 4 me 2 die Ex1 by ~sharastar on deviantART


My heart is still aint content with just that art piece and wants to learn more, but more to how to draw and paint better next time. So i did a search on Youtube for speed Paint, woa im astonished with the speed painting they did. Oh my, how do they colour so well?! I want to do that too! So i did a speed paint yet stuck with the details. I need to learn how to paint details for a near complete art.

Here is The near complete art that i have no clue on painting the ship and other details :